That gnawing feeling

Maybe it was having a few days to myself or maybe it's the working world's sudden interest in me but I'm starting to get that annoying hope feeling again.  Hope is a hard emotion for me because I've had my hopes dashed so many times in the last two years, but I refuse to admit defeat!  I am reveling in the lessons the universe has for me and the very fact that I still feel the slight stirrings of hope makes me hopeful.  If I am full of hope there is no room for despair.